Muhammad Nabil

    Baby i literally feel this but was unable to explain to you   It’s a very unique and strange feeling that, i struggle to express. I literally, feel I have known you long before my existence. Something inside pulls me close to you. If the thought about departing crosses my mind. It triggers an unbearable pain inside which pains my inside. My inner self cries so hard that it leads to uncontrollable tears, which  I have no sense until they are rolling out of my eyes. I realized that a few days ago. And you also witnessed them. They are silent tears that give no warning or indication.   I’m praying that you feel better in the morning. I’m also not 💯 due to being run down with work and now traveling pressure.

        Was it a dream??  It was the morning of the big day. The perfect day, that had been planned carefully with so much attention and care. She got up really early, matter of fact, didn’t sleep all night. Tossing, turning and wondering about the outcome. She had planned about her appearance and what she could wear. Nabil was so attentive to detail. She wanted to look and smell her best. She messaged her love and informed him. The wait was over! Several months of crying and hoping for this day was over. She took a deep breathe and looked at her self in the mirror, hoping for the best. Picked up her handbag and sat in the car anxiously waiting for the driver. She has it all planned in her head. What if they decided to come in? What if she got there late? What if he came late? Over and over, it was never ending. Every stop she would informed him. Nabil was mentally preparing himself for the big meet. As the time ticked closer to the nearly 4 hour dr...

Thoughts bombarded his mind. First it was only when he hit the bed every evening. But recently it was, even when he had a minute to himself. Nabil couldn’t come to any conclusion. She was on his mind day and night. He would often question himself. Why me? What do I have that, no one else has? Why didn’t I meet her earlier? His throbbing heart ached for her so much. How he yearned her sweet smell, that no other human could compare. He would often reminisce, the conversations that they would share daily. It was like time had stopped for them. If only it would! Nabil spent his day looking at the ticking clock, wondering, what his love was doing. It was like being on a mental roller coaster. He knew deep down, she was the one. She was one, who knew the real Nabil. His every thought, that crossed his mind. She would often read his silence and unsaid words. He knew damn well, this woman was no ordinary woman. She was the one that filled the gap in his damaged heart.   My dearest Nabil, p...