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28/02/2024

 

 

She has a habit of overthinking, over analysing every now and then. It’s not a healthy habit but it overtakes her mind. It’s something that has been happening over the past few years. Nabil suffers from her impulse behaviour. She knows that he is always there for her, when she needs him. Nabil is the most patient and loving person that she has in her life. She fears of loosing him but is unable to express that to him. Then this monstrous disease overtakes her mind. It’s like being under a spell until he saves her every time. Once the demons have disappeared, she finds him on her side waiting for her. Longing for him, more than ever. Tears of relief pouring down her face and wishing him there until  eternity.

 

Baby you are the love of my life. My happiness, my escape from my inner demons, my calmness, my reason to get up, my reason to sleep, my happy thoughts, my every thought that crosses my mind throughout the day, my last thought before I sleep. I love you more than I ever can express, my heartbeat that only says your name, the thought of you triggers fire through my body.

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