Muhammad Nabil

  You , a wonderful, optimistic full of hope and most importantly, my ray of sunshine that lights up my heart and it fills with uncontrollable tears. Counting my blessings

  As soon as I saw you , my heart started beating. I was really nervous and anxious. When I came closer to you outside the shop. I just wanted to ground you open and I wanted you to jump in because I was that anxious. But when our eyes met for the first time. My heart started racing and legs went wobbly. Instant smile on my face but trying to be normal as I was in public. My inside was so over joyed. You are exactly how I imagined you would be. The same eyes, nose , face and a very handsome face

  Nabil I hope you are not overthinking about our conversation. It was all random circumstances that came in my head. I’m not going anywhere now or ever. It would kill me slowly to be away from you permanently. You are within me now. Even the thought gives me anxiety. You have no idea.   You are in my heart, my brain , in my veins, my thoughts, in my eyes my sleep, and my soul. How can you possibly go now?? Only one way to take you out now. I love hard baby or don’t love at all. I told you before I’m a once in a lifetime girl. Over sensitive, over thinker, over emotional, over caring and over Gussa girl.       If you really want me baby then your sabar will be tested. Remember that always. If you come out victorious then only if Allah wills Insha Allah I will yours one day. And I will Insha Allah wait for that time. If at any point you are unable to wait then I will shall continue to wait and hope and silently pray to my Allah for your happiness xx    ...

 She was engaged with daily house chores, when Nabil called. Her hands were wet, dripping with water as she quickly answered the phone. she smiled and her heart skipped a beat. Nabil was calling from his office and wanted to take her to a iftaar gathering at work. He was very excited because it would be the first time her could take her out and introduce his pride to the world. She listened very carefully as he spoke very gently to her. “ But I don’t know what to wear” she replied. “ anything will look good on you” he replied. “ I will pick you up at 4.30 “ then he hung up. As she finished her cleaning, she was deep in thought about her love. The love she fought for! Looking at the clock , “ I don’t have much time.” She opened her wardrobe and took black trousers and pale grey shirt out for Nabil and put it on her bed. Then she pulled out a pair of black shoes from a box. She cleaned the shoes until they looked almost new. Now she as the hard part! She has decided that her outfit h...

    She has a habit of overthinking, over analysing every now and then. It’s not a healthy habit but it overtakes her mind. It’s something that has been happening over the past few years. Nabil suffers from her impulse behaviour. She knows that he is always there for her, when she needs him. Nabil is the most patient and loving person that she has in her life. She fears of loosing him but is unable to express that to him. Then this monstrous disease overtakes her mind. It’s like being under a spell until he saves her every time. Once the demons have disappeared, she finds him on her side waiting for her. Longing for him, more than ever. Tears of relief pouring down her face and wishing him there until  eternity.   Baby you are the love of my life. My happiness, my escape from my inner demons, my calmness, my reason to get up, my reason to sleep, my happy thoughts, my every thought that crosses my mind throughout the day, my last thought before I sleep. I love you mor...

    She laying in her bed thinking about him. He was on her mind all the time. No matter where she was, he never left her. Nabil was a ray of sunshine. He came to her life unexpectedly.  He was as a blessing in disguise. Why him? She often questioned herself. Out of millions of people in the world, he was the one who saved her from self destruction. As she thought of him in a loving  way, a sudden smile appeared on her face. She thanked Allah for her special person. She needed him maybe more than he needed her. Nabil was also leading to self destruction at that time. But in each other’s company they found love. Love is just a word that is used by people everyday. They had, more than they both realised   They had each other to talk about their worries and thoughts. He listened carefully and always put her first. Her feelings always were Nabil’s priority. No matter what he was feeling, he always considered her feelings first. Over the period of weeks their bond be...